Drawing my line in the sand...

I have been pondering so much lately.  Trying to remember what it was like to sit under a blanket on a crisp day reading our beloved school books.  Having breakfast together and doing our Bible time.  Working our math problems until both of our heads hurt.  It seems like a lifetime ago that we were sitting exactly where I am right now doing all of these things and more.  Fast forward to today.  We are spending much of our days just like then but now we are preparing monthly newsletters.  We are updating a website, picking out costumes, making phone calls to book a theater for our Spring Showcase.  I am so humbled...and so amazed by our Lord.  I am thankful and that my days are filled with wonder as I watch my daughter teach her classes.  I am even more in awe that out of our humblest beginnings of Homeschooling that I am watching and experiencing the fruits of our labor.

I haven't been blogging, obviously for so long.  I haven't really known what to say.  We have been so busy some days we are so tired when our heads hit the pillow that we have to sleep hard and fast as there is still so much to do.  But it is more than that.  In the last months we have faced so much...from...well... hatred and jealousy and envy to well wishes by people who have decided to stand beside my daughter and trust her with their children.  I appreciate these people so very much.  I sit at the reception desk daily and listen to my daughter teach her students and wonder...how did she learn all this.  Then she reminds me that she learned to teach from me.  ME?  Wasn't I the one who was constantly doubting if I was doing right by her.  Wasn't I the one who wondered if I was giving her enough?  Finding the right books to broaden her horizons?  Seeking God daily to find His wisdom?  That was me...somewhere along the path I stopped doubting my own self and began to put aside my fears and began to really seek Him in finding exactly what she needed for her future.

I have been letting these thought simmer in my brain and in my heart for a while now.  As times are changing and more and more people are beginning to homeschool.  I don't want to hide my light under a bushel.  I want to let my light shine.  I want to encourage and teach and show just how successful a homeschool can be. 

I haven't been blogging because sometimes I feel like it is too much about me.  I am not self indulgent...but I desire with my heart to be of service to the Lord.  To encourage and help calm the fears of homeschoolers who are tired and weary.  Who may think that they just can't sit at the table with their child who is crying over math problems just one more day.  I've been there.  I have experienced it all and what a waste it would be for me to forget about it and not to share.

So, I am going to rework my little blog a bit.  There is more to come...

There is strength in Him,
Joyce Marie