Hump Day

It is just a typical Wednesday here.  Dreary, cold and busy.  Yesterday, I was forcing myself to be thankful, of course I am thankful for so many things.  I was not my self.  I am starting to feel the crunch of life come upon me and instead of panicking...I decided to just be thankful.

We are in the midst of needing a day off so badly.  At least I do.  I started the year off so organized and now I feel things piling up. Last night Brittany and I stayed at the studio until midnight making tutus for the parade.  Only one more to go and then we do the hair bows wrap large packages for the luggage rack of our van and except for washing the van we'll be ready for the parade.  Parade practice is next Tuesday, we also offer cookies after the practice.  I am thinking just simple, gooey, yummy chocolate chip will make my life easy.  I am even wondering if SAMs Club has cookie dough that I can just stick on a baking sheet.  I need to get it all done because I need to clean my house for thanksgiving and start to plan and get ready for our feast.  If you can tell I am a tad bit stressed.  After so many years of just being homemaker and mom it is hard to be working even though it does bring joy to my life.

I have also been out of sorts since the election and to top it off my birthday is tomorrow.  Normally it doesn't bother me at all but this one is a biggie and last week in the mail I got an AARP CARD!  I threw it in the trash, I guess you can call it denial.  They say 50 is the new 30.  I wish that I felt convinced of this, again, denial.  But, tomorrow, I will wake up to a brand new day and will begin a new journey.  I will say goodbye to my forties.  I loved my forties, my plan, to find even more joy in my fifties...ugh, there I said the dreadful number after all.  A half a century!  Ugh!